A couple of weeks ago I tried to take my own life, the fear, the pain, and the guilt were taking over my life. I couldnt think for me any more. I didnt care any more, I didnt want to hurt any more. I said fuck it all fuck everyone, because I would have left them alone. When I saw the tears I realized my selfishness, yet I still didn’t want to feel the pain. I still wanted it to be over, but oh how un thoughtful. I care enough not to leave, but it is causing my agony. The circumstances of my depression make it hard for me to breathe, but the consequences of suicide make it hard for me to leave.